I thought i knew But now i KNOW

i thought it was missing the touch of romance. i thought there was a wall between us. i thought life would be hell without you. i thought i could not live without you by my side. i thought it was your appearance. i thought it was your secuding words. i thought all my feelings of love were for you, but i was wrong. We were not missing the touch of romance, there was never a real wall between us it was a door that i was not willing to open for you. Life for me would be just fine without you, i can live without you by my side because i have God. I thought your appearance was a problem for me but no, it was just another excuse to not be with you. i thought your words were so fascinating and addicting, i was wrong, i just don’t talk to as many people so i talked to you instead. And as for my feelings they were not for you, they were feelings for someone else that applied to you but not for you. I just want to be your friend because i realized our relationship is not working out. In school you pay too much attention to me, I’ve tried to tell you to focus on your studies but you wouldn’t no matter how serious i looked. You have been a huge distraction for me in school, even embarrassed me in front of my teachers. Dude you scared me like hell but it made me smile. at that time i had no idea why i felt so happy. Now i know, because ever since i met you there has been strings that attached me to you, however when that specific event accord you broke a multiple strings. it is kinda complicated why I’m happy for that. But all i can say about it is that it made me happy to be free from you after all these months of liking you in a way that draws me away from reality. I know when i was with you i had the sweetest dreams in life and in sleep. i know when i was with you my life and perspective changed within the blink of an eye. i know your lips are soft and kissable. i know you were a pervert in a good and bad way. i know you loved me. i know you were addicted to me. i know i was so interested and curious about you. i know i was addicted to you. i know i was blinded by the most wonderful fantasy a girl could ever have. i know you used to love me so much there was no way to weigh it or percent it. When i told you i just wanted to be friends, things would be better for me than for you. i do not know how you feel about me now, and for the first time in my life; i am not curious. Taken 8:22 4/16/09—–SINGLE 9:33am 4/22/09 (six days)

Rocker and Charming; my two heroes

Rocker and Charming are my everyday heroes. I have two heroes. Both men are the opposite of each other. I see them Monday through Friday in school. Everyday they use their unique gestures to make me laugh after a rough morning with my mom. I see the two men as Batman and Robin type of heroes. In my world I call them “Rocker and Charming”. Without one or the other life feels incomplete because three heads are better than one. In school Rocker always says good morning and asks me “how are you?” Charming always gives me cute little looks that make a smile slice across my face. I only have four classes with the both of them. In each of those classes we help one another when needed. If I did not know what a word meant I would ask Rocker, he tends to know most of the words that I ask about. If I were lost in a class discussion or assignment process I would ask Charming, he would help me out of my lost island into a found island. Rocker and Charming are two different types of men. Rocker can be cruel with words and yet very appealing with his word choice. He has many different talents such as playing the guitar and being academically smart. Charming is very gentle and uses soft silly words that are followed by smiles. He has many people-person talents such as socializing, being physical and personality attractive. But one thing they both have in common is that they are strong mentally and emotionally in their own way. They are like Batman and Robin because if one is gone the other takes his place, or at least tries. Fact in height Batman is taller than robin; Rocker is taller than Charming. In one Batman and Robin episode there was a villain named Poison Ivy. Robin let his feelings get in the way; Charming is like that too. Batman knew better; just like Rocker would. Near the end Batman had a hard time persuading Robin but Robin listened anyways because batman’s idea would still let robin get what he wants. And of course at the end of the episode Poison Ivy was put way into prison, Batman and robin gained more trust. My two heroes Rocker and Charming, have been apart of me more than my family ever has. They are with me through difficulties and pressure from life and school. I am so glad to see them five days a week because they save me from the dark sides. Just like Batman and Robin, they are friends and trust each other through experience. If I had to live without one or the other my life will feel incomplete because three heads are better than one or two. By Alexis L. Reyna

like Angels for Demons (lexis + banana)

whats a matter with you

does it look like i’ve been torn in two?

NO!!!

how much lower could you go?

my heart has never divided

because you’ve never been invited!

i’ve never asked you to stay

so why dont you just walk away?

oh i see you  cant let me go

because you turly love me so.

sorry but our relationship fell apart

and i ripped out your heart,

Carelessly threw it into the sea

so why cant you just let me be?!

Be there

 

When my eyes shatter

you ask me whats a matter.

i’ll tell you that i’m fine

and that throws you off line.

Dont want to pretend

or let this moment end.

Alone with me

is the only place you want to be.

holdin me in your arm

keepin me away from harm.

wiping away my tears

along with my well known fears.

one way or another

we’ll always be there for eachother.

issues

i have an issue

about you

that i cant possibly

ever undo!!!!

a sign?

just give me one simple sign

and i promies i wont whine.

thats the only thing i beg of you

other wise we’re through.

it is all your choice

whether to put it into voice,

that could be heard aloud

with or without a crowd!

i will wait for a sign

and i promise i wont whine.

forgetfull

All the boys i’ve ever met

are so DAMN easy to forget!

they make things boring

before i even start snoring!

i dont want to stay,

alli wanna do is go away!

They cant keep me,

because i fight hard to be FREE!

My fantasy

i see you in the distance, you spot me, we start running up to each other, by the time we’re close up, i jump up to hug you and you catch me and swing me around laughing while i’m giggleing. When you set me down youlook into my eyes, as i look into yours, than…..THAT goes on pause LoL than we end up walkin under the stars, holding hands, talking, laughing, having a good time, we find a log to sit on and you count the stars and find that it is impossible to count them all but then you look at something possible, you look towards me silently you say ”you’re beautiful”  and wrap your arms around me and then…. LOL that goes on pause!! then another one starts LOL

Stay Away

i dont wanna hear from you

i dont wanna seee you 

at all

hey dont even call

me today

cuz im gonna go away

 

i dont want you anymore

there for

dont come knockin at my door

or come crawlin on my floor

 

just go away

thats all i’ll say

to you

so shooo!!!