(May 12th 2009) I cant or can I stand this??!! I just ran bec I have soo much energy in me… I need to like scream until my throat hurts or run to Portland nonstop or swim In the ocean and let it push me onto some island and I will be so happy to either die or suffer alive. I keep running… but why… why do I run
(feb 16 2011) that passage above isnt strong enough. i am going to update it!! YAYIES! Cant i or can i withstand this??!! No…because i ran… an energy overwhelmed my senses only to make me take a run. I felt the urge to run to scream till my voice box bursts into a googleian pieces or to swim bare naked in the ocean- letting it give me peace in whatever way it wants. To be stranded on an island so alienated so isolated and so happy to die or live suffering rather than to confront the person i ran from..
mmmm not half as bad… could be better!!!
(feb 7ht 2011) It was all i knew how to- No more running alexis *laughs* its ok to do that physically, but not mentally. Your mind must not be trained to run away. Face it. Conquer it. BE ASSERTIVE! Go to it, let it slice you in the front as you can see it to defend yourself or attack. Do not wait till it creeps up from behind and surprises you with fresh stabs and more to follow. Get armored up, sleep well, eat well, live life, and learn. If you want to scream- DO IT: scream. You control your actions, feelings, and thoughts– start getting selfish. Yes, selfishness can be bad, only if you pass the limit. Do what makes you happy and then you can make others happy as well. you know this ,alexis, you know this well. Walk the walk lady! You know what happened last night, therefore you know whats NOT going to happen later in life. Bear this in mind– You are Alexis Lucia Reyna, you make the calls, you choose how & what to gain or lose– y o u a r e g o i n g t o b e w h a t y o u m e n t a l l y w a n t t o b e ! ! ! ! !
