UGH!!! what the hell am i doing. why do i think about love so much. am i trying to find something relish or something devastating?

i have been having men problems ever since i started liking those creatures. i find a special someone and then not much later another special someone shows up. both want to have more than a friendship with me. i’d give each individual a chance. no matter what. but the more i gave chances the less i actually felt loved or believe what they say. once i had one, he doesnt have one or more of the seven keys to a relationship: faith love respect communication honesty trust happiness. i’d give him 5 days to change. if that doesnt work then bye bye.

i dumped alot of men and the more i dumped the more cold i got. i even got to the point where i felt like i was on top of mount everest! and thats when i realized i had to stop right then and there. it took me a while. as you know old habits die hard. finally i broke loose from that. but i did not know what to do after wards. so i just winged it with whoever whenever, that was bad.

i found my self being tossed around like rag doll. of course the men did not care because they were too damn happy to cuddle & flirt with me. i didnt like the idea of me being a rag doll at all so i took control over myself and began being more BLUNT! and of course that started drama because the boys felt sooo lonely and sad without me in their life. well for their information i never actually left. i’m still here for them but ONLY AS A FRIEND. and yet they have a realllllly HARD time to accept being my friend, they want more than that. too bad im goona be as stubborn and blunt until they understand me more than 100%. and (laughs) why should i give a guy, who doesnt respect my words, a chance? hahaha never. if they wanna play a game of tag, i;ll go get my taser gun. =] im sure they’ll see that i dont wanna play. =]

well now that that;s over with. whats next. well here we go again. i just hope i dont do something bad like i did when i let myself become a rag doll. my gosh that was awful. (i admit i liked the attention, but it isnt the kind i need or want) oh oh oh oh!!!! and if you took the time to read this you’re my trueee friend! please please leave your thoughts or any type of comment or if you laughed leave a comment “lol” or something =]]]]]]